Tuesday, January 31, 2017
#RelationshipGoals
This is a project that my counselor suggested. A list of what I want out of a [romantic] relationship AND what I can offer in a [romantic] relationship. The what I want is kind of easy, just because I've been saving pictures on my phone whenever I come across something profound. The second part is going to be more difficult and I will definitely need to cogitate on it.
Here is part one - what I am hoping for in a relationship (if I ever find someone crazy enough to take on all of my... awesomeness... again)
Monday, January 30, 2017
Loss of Faith / Politics
I have been fairly vocal on social media about politics as of late - much to the consternation of certain family and friends. I realize that there is a lot of chatter and shouting and information overload, most of which is slanted very strongly for one side or the other, and it is hard to tell the truth from the... other truth... from the alternative facts... from the... all of it.
That being said, I am not going to be silent. I will try and be more deliberate in my choice of words, but I will not put my head in the sand and just accept things that are happening. I should not have to. NO ONE should have to accept what they firmly believe to be wrong. Turning your head away from injustice is allowing it to continue.
People are angry because they are scared and people are scared because the world has gone dark and evil and it feels like no one is doing anything about it. The media is trying to scare us by feeding us too much information without actually telling us the truth.
My mother has been calm and quiet throughout this - she is unhappy with what is happening but believes that 'God has a plan'. I envy her that unshakable faith as it must be comforting when the world seems to be falling apart all around us.
I realized that I am struggling the most because I do not have that kind of faith. I had put my faith in the inherent goodness of people - and my faith has been shaken to the core. I still want to believe that the majority of people are good and kind and generous, but it becomes more and more difficult as the days go on to find that spark of belief.
So I will BE that person. I will be good, kind, and generous. I will be strong, and brave, and outspoken. I will be a safe space for those who need it, a defender for those who are afraid, and a light in the overwhelming darkness. I will do what I can, for even though I am only one person, I am one person who can make a difference in this world.
Sunday, January 15, 2017
Preview
Something that has been on my mind. All these are from Merriam Webster
Resentment:
A feeling of indignant displeasure or persistent ill will at
something regarded as a wrong, insult, or injury
A feeling of anger or displeasure about someone or something
unfair
A feeling of angry displeasure at a real or imagined wrong,
insult, or injury
Envy
A painful or resentful awareness of an advantage enjoyed by
another joined with a desire to possess the same advantage
Jealousy
A jealous disposition,
attitude, or feeling
An
unhappy or angry feeling of wanting to have what someone else has
A
feeling of unhappiness caused by wanting what someone else has
An
unhappy or angry feeling caused by the belief that someone you love (such as
your husband or wife) likes or is liked by someone else
A
feeling of unhappiness and anger caused by a belief that a loved one might be
unfaithful
Depending
on who you ask, jealousy and envy are either
exact synonyms, totally different words, or near-synonyms with some degree of
semantic overlap and some differences. It is difficult to make the case, based
on the evidence of usage that we have, for either of the first two
possibilities. Both jealousy and envy are
often used to indicate that a person is covetous of something that
someone else has, but jealousy carries the particular sense of
“zealous vigilance” and tends to be applied more exclusively to feelings of
protectiveness regarding one’s own advantages or attachments. In the domain of
romance, it is more commonly found than envy. If you were to say
“your salt-shaker collection fills me with jealousy,” most people would take it
to mean much the same thing as “your salt-shaker collection fills me with
envy.” But if someone made a flirtatious comment to your partner, you would
likely say that it caused you jealousy, not envy.
Thursday, January 5, 2017
#BlogGoals
Sorry not sorry for the hashtag. It seemed fitting since this post is going to be quick.
I'm starting this blog as a kind of therapeutic sounding board and I make no promises to be consistent with either schedule or content.
I may post poetry or prose, I might review a movie, or a product. I might talk about something wonderful or rant about an emotional meltdown. It really all depends on the day and my mood.
I want to work on being truthful with myself and accepting what I need without trying to meet some sort of unrealistic expectations.
That's all I wanted to say. I'm going to keep it short and sweet. Just like me. :)
I'm starting this blog as a kind of therapeutic sounding board and I make no promises to be consistent with either schedule or content.
I may post poetry or prose, I might review a movie, or a product. I might talk about something wonderful or rant about an emotional meltdown. It really all depends on the day and my mood.
I want to work on being truthful with myself and accepting what I need without trying to meet some sort of unrealistic expectations.
That's all I wanted to say. I'm going to keep it short and sweet. Just like me. :)
Wednesday, January 4, 2017
Forgiveness
Forgiveness is a strange concept, isn't it? Webster's dictionary defines it as to stop feeling anger toward (someone who has done something wrong) : to stop blaming (someone) : to stop feeling anger about (something) : to forgive someone for (something wrong) : to stop requiring payment of (money that is owed). Most people think of forgiveness in a religious context - to err is human, to forgive "divine" - but it is not that limited.
To try and forgive someone who has hurt you can be infuriating. You may feel that they do not deserve forgiveness especially if they have not apologized or indicated that they feel remorse in any way. Forgiveness can seem like an impossibility and in some cases, it truly is. There are some things, some heinous acts, that are truly unforgivable and I'm not suggesting that forgiveness is a must in those cases. However, one thing I have noticed in regards to forgiving people is that it can lessen their power over your emotions.
So many times the anger and hurt and frustration can feel like it is all-consuming and slowly poisoning you from the inside out. Forgiving someone can nullify that poison effectively. Forgiving someone does not need to be done for their sake, nor does it mean that they are allowed back in your life in the same way. Forgiving someone does not automatically make what they have done 'okay'. It means that you are no longer allowing them to have power over you and your life and are allowing yourself to move on.
But what about forgiving ourselves? Is that easier or harder to do? When we think we have failed at doing something we become our own worst and harshest critics. New Years especially is a time when we make resolutions for ourselves and many people tend to give up after the first couple of months if they stumble. But we can and should forgive our stumbling, our mistakes and foibles, and yes, even our failures. We are only human after all, and we forgive others for minor infractions far more easily than we forgive ourselves.
I challenge you to forgive someone today, even (or especially) if it is yourself. You might be surprised at how much lighter you feel after doing so.
To try and forgive someone who has hurt you can be infuriating. You may feel that they do not deserve forgiveness especially if they have not apologized or indicated that they feel remorse in any way. Forgiveness can seem like an impossibility and in some cases, it truly is. There are some things, some heinous acts, that are truly unforgivable and I'm not suggesting that forgiveness is a must in those cases. However, one thing I have noticed in regards to forgiving people is that it can lessen their power over your emotions.
So many times the anger and hurt and frustration can feel like it is all-consuming and slowly poisoning you from the inside out. Forgiving someone can nullify that poison effectively. Forgiving someone does not need to be done for their sake, nor does it mean that they are allowed back in your life in the same way. Forgiving someone does not automatically make what they have done 'okay'. It means that you are no longer allowing them to have power over you and your life and are allowing yourself to move on.
But what about forgiving ourselves? Is that easier or harder to do? When we think we have failed at doing something we become our own worst and harshest critics. New Years especially is a time when we make resolutions for ourselves and many people tend to give up after the first couple of months if they stumble. But we can and should forgive our stumbling, our mistakes and foibles, and yes, even our failures. We are only human after all, and we forgive others for minor infractions far more easily than we forgive ourselves.
I challenge you to forgive someone today, even (or especially) if it is yourself. You might be surprised at how much lighter you feel after doing so.
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